Wednesday, August 29, 2012

First Day

6 days until the last first day of school for me. I mean it feels great to say that, but in reality I'll be going to more school in the future. Prospectively for an MBA. But this is the end of the road of continuous school. 19 years of wanting a new outfit for the first day and new notebooks and pencils. A fresh start, a clean slate. 79 days until I don't have to worry about professors and assignments. My Sunday nights won't be consumed by craming for homework/tests I put on hold to enjoy the weekend. No more disconnecting my internet and TV to study. 79 days....

Maybe one day I'll be able to talk about my job. I'm still not comfortable, in fear I'll say something I'm not supposed to tell the world. If you want to hear, ask. I could talk for days.

Well I'm going to bed.

Tell your parents you love them today. Thanks :)

Thursday, August 23, 2012


I've got enough canvases to fill an entire wall. Okay, not quite, but I'm getting there. I've been painting like crazy this summer. My first one was the best. Next one was nice but nothing great or note-worthy. Third was the worst. I gave up on the fourth before I even started painting, which isn't a good sign. It's hard for me to finish things I'm not totally invested in. I haven't quite figured out why I'm NOT like that at work....Anyways, my fifth painting is looking REALLY good and it's my biggest yet. I bought a print of my favorite painting ever. My painting of it hangs in my parents living room and I don't want to take it from them until I have something better to give them. :) It's Van Gogh Starry Night if you are curious. Stay posted, I may start selling my paintings and taking requests within my style.

I like attention. I did everything imaginable to be the center of attention when I was younger. I enjoy all eyes on me. It's funny I think like that yet seem to be so self conscious. Someone please explain that.

85 days til graduation! I'm trying to decide where I want to go for dinner after graduation with my fam/close friends. I want something like Carnevor except not $40 a plate. I don't want someplace I could go any weekend. Hmmmm guess I gotta keep thinking.

I'm going to start saying one thing I like about my job at a time instead of job liking overload.
I like that I stay busy and always have work to do!

"May the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:7

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

I'm Holding on by a Limb

Holding on to SUMMER that is! This is SOOOO hard!! I love summer. The breeze that has been making an appearance around the wanna-be sky-scrapers of downtown Milwaukee is already making me want to cry. The season is changing and for the first time in almost 8 years I'm slightly excited. As temperatures drop, so does my college countdown. I'm holding on by a limb because my job search is also an interesting topic right now. It's not really a search. I'm being searched. But I'm starting to get the itch to know my future post the next 12.5 weeks. I'll let you know more when I can.

Shopping is the worst right now. When all the stores have BACK TO SCHOOL imprinted on everything around you and all you want is NO school. I guess I still dread school even when I'm this close.

The past week has been great not worrying about school. It's almost like a mini vaca. I can handle it. Now to figure out my sleep schedule so that getting out of bed before my alarm is screaming at me to move.

So maybe getting a head start at that bed time? Night!

Friday, August 17, 2012

Guess Who's Backkk?

So I missed the August 10th date I promised. Some other things came up and I haven't fully adjusted to having internet and cable back at my house! But needless to say, I have no lack of words, thoughts, or emotions to spill to the world.

Can you believe I've been writing regularly since I was 6?! That's 16 years of emotion put on paper. Does it apply to everything that the more you do it, the better you become? Practice makes perfect? If I had chosen to do anything else this consistently for 16 years I'm assuming I could  be pretty good at it. In that case, it still discourages me when I get less than perfect scores on school papers. Writing is fairly subjective. You don't enjoy every book you read and everyone has their own philosophy on correct grammar. I guess because I understand that, is why I can accept less than perfect scores on papers and not completely want to yell at someone for not understanding things the way I do. That's why I blog and journal. My feelings, thoughts, opinions, and grammar aren't graded. They're mine. Thank you for appreciating that if you do.

My birthday was already 2 weeks ago. August is flying by. This summer is flying by. 2012 is flying by. Why haven't I graduated already?! (91 days) Last summer I went through a phase of sadness watching others my age party their summers away. This summer I've been more selfish. When I see those people now, I feel a sense of accomplishment that I'm growing up and going places. That's not to say I'm not still slightly jealous. If time was going slow I'd be more worried and probably pretty bored or upset with my life.

If I haven't said this before, I definitely lack something in my body. Apart from having a super short attention span, I get crazy crabby when I get hungry. It's not like I turn into beast mode or the hulk or anything, but snappy, short-tempered, etc. How amazing is it that a simple fix like food cures it and that I am blessed to not have to worry about obtaining food at any time of the day? I learned about many cultures in my world societies class this summer that are not as fortunate.

Speaking of (wasn't that a good transition sentence?), summer classes are now over and I have a nice little 2 week break that I can dedicate solely to work! Something I can get used to in 13 weeks! :-D I still love my job and thank God every day for how blessed I truly am. I finally have a savings account that I'm putting more into than I am taking out! I'm going to savor that before I have to start making student loan payments. :'(

I'm going to Iowa tomorrow to visit my brother. I really like Dubuque, it's a nice place to go for a weekend every couple months. I don't mind the few hour drive either. Since my brother is one of the most knowledgeable, wise people I know in my age group, it's nice to have intelligent conversations with him. We can't thank our parents enough for how they raised us. :-D

Thanks for reading! Hopefully I will be able to keep you guys more up to date now!

Just for kicks, here's a picture of the cute face I get to wake up to every morning! :-D