Sunday, July 8, 2012

Hott Hott Heat

I desire this time of the year more than most other things. I can complain about the heat and humidity as much as a dog panting after a long walk, but I truly love it. I think you know enough of my emotions on how I feel about weather so I might as well discuss other things frantically bouncing through my head.

Work is huge for me. I'm career oriented. I'm determined. I'm a "busy-body". These are all words I've spent hours determining (haha) I am. I can say over and over I love my job but I always ask myself why. In large, I convince myself of that. If you tell yourself you like/love your job, it's way easier convincing yourself you really do even if every day is hectic. My job makes me happy because people depend on me. To me, the things I do are simple, but many others can't/wouldn't do it. It is stable enough to be consistent but every day has new obstacles. I also believe this subject is like beating a dead bush because I can only discuss my work happiness so much. I'm already craving the next step. I'm ahead of where I even thought I would be at this point in my life and I find my selfishness wanting more.

My need for more is quite simple. I've seen and done so much already in my life that I want to continue that upward progression**:). Having feelings and adrenaline doing such extreme things makes daily life quite boring at times. That's why I'm always searching for the next exciting adventure to do.    I will be forever chasing that feeling. I'm glad adventures give it to me rather than other things of this world.

Relationships never fail to befuddle me. I can solve a complex math equation but can't figure out relationships. If only I could turn it into an equation. At least I know I'm not alone. Haha. But its a struggling battle for me.

I was recently asked if I see emotions as colors and that totally hit the spot for me. I do! My paintings completely reflect that. It's an easy way to express my feelings. A simple color. It just makes sense.

Onto my next battle. This week has tremendously added stress to my life. Why? Summer in Milwaukee. I love people. I hate stupid people. This is such a mean thing to say. I'm stupid sometimes. I live within spitting distance of Summerfest, the largest music festival IN THE WORLD. Something I should be so happy to have at my disposal, yet these 11 days make me cringe. Roads I travel every day are blocked by gobs and gobs of tourists. Traffic is ridiculous. Drunk people are everywhere. It really is not appealing to me. Milwaukee should pay me to deal with this crap.  Then you have the fourth of July and all the other fests and rush hour. It's just really annoying and probably even more so this year because I have responsibilities and can't be out enjoying myself every day/night. I will be happy when it's over except the weather changes as the people do.

Well this has been a nice rant. Thanks for your attention.

1 comment:

  1. "I've seen and done so much already in my life that I want to continue that upward regression." Thought you should know that it's PROgression, not REgression. Typo, I am sure.