Friday, September 25, 2009

Back up and Running

Enough complaining about gaining weight, I'm back in the gym. I ran a couple miles today. Nothing huge, but I was on the tredmil for about 20 minutes. It's encouraging to be in the gym. You see the guys that are there every day twice a day, with the huge pipes and six pack that can be seen through their cut-off tees, which is nice to know it is possible to get in shape by working out. Then you seen the over-weight people doing less strenuous things and at least for me, it's nice to know that they are trying to change.
I kinda had a break down last night, which was long coming. I've been gaining weight since freshman year of high school. Not a rediculous amount, I mean I take care of myself, but you know there's a point where you stop feeling good even if the world says your weight is fine. That's kinda where I am. And I complain about it which is hypocritical, because I get mad at people that say they're fat and don't do anything about it. So, end of story I went to the gym today. It was nice.

Um, no major plans, I've got some options. I think I'm going to finish watching The Office with my roomies then take a nap, because I can. :)

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Dark Blue

I have so many favorite songs and artists. It changes by the mood I'm in. When I'm calm I loveee listening to Jacks Mannequin. Just easy listening, up-beat rythm, over-all happy music. If I'm in a more rock mood, I'm totally turning on Jimmy Eat World, Weezer, All-American Rejects. Those are my favorites lately. I've also been listening to Taylor Swift recently. She has good break-up songs that are kinda pop/country and since she's a girl it's easier to relate to. That's another thing with the music I listen to, I alwayssss relate my life to the song. Family, friends, school, relationships, I always think of how the song is somehow true for me. Now, I also listen to popular songs on the radio, good up-beat songs, but they're not my favorite. I listen to them if I'm not in the mood for anything particular. I like hip-hop/ rap mostly just on the weekends. It gets me pumped up and, of course, good dancing music. :)

The title of this is Dark Blue, a song by Jack's Mannequin, I'm listening to them right now. I choose that song though, because the past few days have been cloudy and such and it was just an all around good song for the time. Someday when I move to a warm place, I'm going to crank the stereo listening to Jack's Mannequin the whole way.

"Slow down.. this night's a perfect shade of Dark blue"

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Carmel Apples

Packers lost today.
I did lots of homework.
The sun never came out.
I just bought a carmel apple.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Bad day

No reason really, or no ONE reason. Just one of those days you're dreding, and just the fact that you're dreding it, it doesn't go well. My wrist has hurting from the time I opened my eyes today. Is it in my head? Quite possible. Is it my way of taking the pain away from other aspects in my life? Quite possible. I handed homework in today for calc that I just wasn't confident about. I had a quiz in Physics, but my batteries died on my calculator. Which shows how truely reliant our generation is on calculators, although I think the problems have gotten harder. I had 4 hours of physics tonight and had to painfully listen to jazz in the park, knowing people were having more fun there and I was sitting in Physics...
I took off my rings today. Although the tan lines remind me of what's missing. :( Enough said.

Oh yea, my retainer broke in half this morning. I wear a splint for my jaw problem (tmj), and every morning I get out of bed and head straight to the shower. I took out my splint this morning still half asleep and dropped it. It's made of acrylic and when it hit the floor split into 2 pieces. Hopefully it's fixable...
As my dad put it: "No surprise, that's the way things are going right now."

Well, I have an orthopedic appointment early tomorrow morning and homework that needs to be done now. So hopefully I'll be in a better mood next time we chat.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Add it to the list.

I dred getting old for the simple fact that I'm only 19 and already have fragile bones. At 11 years old, I broke my first bone. My middle finger on my left hand. This happened when I was jumping on a trampoline with a guy that was quite larger than me and he landed on my hand and turned out I broke my finger and had a cast. Then when I was about 12 or 13 I broke my right arm in multiple places from doing a back hand spring in my basement. It doesn't end there. When I was about 15 I tore my MCL from downhill skiing and had a knee brace for quite a few months. When I was about 16 I injured my back in dance and had an MRI but they didn't find anything. It still occasionally hurts so I'm convinced there's something wrong with it, but not as bad as it could be. I am now 19 and I broke my wrist 2 days ago. I was raised with parents that looked out for me very well and made sure when I rode my bike I always wore my helmet and likewise when I went rollerblading, I didn't leave without my wristgaurds. Well, a couple days ago I go rollerblading with my friend who is not as experienced with rollerblading, so I gave her my wrist gaurds.....of COURSE, the time I'm not being careful, I fall flat on my back. My wrist was a little sore right away but I figured that pain was temporary. Well hours later when I couldn't even pull up my pants, I knew something was wrong. I went to the doctor yesterday and they did x-rays and the such to find I did indeed break my wrist. It's a buckle fracture so the doctor gave me a removable splint because it should heal faster than a normal break. Just thought I'd give you my life history of injuries.

Well I have some homework I need to do before "the game" tonight. (Packers vs. Bears) Apparently it's a big deal to everyone up here in the frozen tundra....ha.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Religion, God, Christ

Does it freak you out? Do you hate talking about it? Do you know what you believe? Do you believe?
I think in the past two years, I've become SO much more aware of my faith. I don't know everything about the bible, or even close for that matter, but I think I know enough to stand for what I believe. I guess being a pastors' kid, I was always made fun of for being a good little church girl, or having people tell me it sucks I have to go to church every Sunday, or that I was wasting my summers at church camp or on youth retreats, and to be honest it really got under my skin. I thought I could hide it but I guess I've learned in the past couple years that that's not who I am. Religion means a lot to me and my family. It hurts me to hear people brag about not going to church in months or since last Christmas. Am I going to force them to go to church? No, but I also don't need to hear them brag about not going. I guess I've come to see the morals of people who don't see faith the way I do and those morals aren't the same as mine. It's not like I'm going to push my view on anyone or make my friends believe what I do, or not be friends with people that don't believe the same, but it's hard to see their view.
Last night I sat in my bed reading the bible for about an hour. It felt really good and I went to church this week with a fellow pk (pastors' kid).

Today was my first day of classes. It went generally well. I don't have homework so I might start writing for my brother.
I might talk about politics tomorrow if you're lucky.

Back to school

So I start classes tomorrow. Am I excited? A little. After 13 years of first days of school, you'd think I'd be a pro, but every years the same, relatively speaking. Soon enough I will be back in the swing of things praying for the weekend to come a little sooner.

On to other news, I've been asked to co-write a book with my brother. Am I excited? Of course. I've always loved journaling and telling people my thoughts and opinions because so often I listen to others. But writing is always good. You learn so much about yourself and how you feel without the slightest influence of others. It's a good feeling. But anyways, I won't leak the topic quite yet but I need to start thinking what I'll write. Start brainstorming.

It's kind of a topic that I can't be bias about because the entire book would be opinion and people that didn't agree with me would likely be angry and not want to read it. On the other hand, I have to be able to tell my point of view because that is part of the book too. I guess it's complicated to talk about yet at this stage. I'll keep updating as I understand more I guess.

On that note, I need to prepare for school tomorrow, I have a lot to learn.
Goodnight world.