Thursday, June 18, 2009

Summer Nights

So I sit here in my room, another night of all my friends ditching out because of the need to start their work day so early. Do I regret not getting a 9-5 job so I can be just like them? Have no life during the weekdays and spend my weekends simply re-cooperating just to start the process all over? Or am I glad I have a night job that doesn't require me pulling myself out of bed early every morning and starting the day off cranky? I'd have to say I have mixed feelings. Although, with me, what is new? I can never say I'm just happy, or just sad. Ever since I was 14 I've had so many feelings. (Haha, family joke.) Anyways, it's sad I don't have a single friend that could take off one day to spend shopping with me or chill at the beach. Maybe it's just me. People making excuses so they don't have to spend time with me. Hm, in that case, watching re-runs and getting fat by continuously cooking food all day will have to suffice.

I have to say this summer has been a real changing point in my life thus far. The realization that high school was such a short period of so many memories that will never come again. I can't say I miss the foolishness or the childish characters we were, but the carefree-ness of being a bit more risky or willing to stay out late even if we had to be up super early the next day. I definitely miss the days of being supported by our parents and not having jobs, so we were all free all the time. I know it's stupid to miss things or bask in the past, but it's my blog and that's how I've been feeling lately. I work with the cards I'm dealt. I try to schedule around work and find times to see people or plan events, but it seems so tough to even try sometimes. Enough of that. I just needed to vent enough that hopefully someone might read this and realize we're still young and have time to be foolish a bit longer.

On to other news. I haven't really talked much about this on my side, but the issue of my brother being in Pakistan I think about almost every day. To answer your first question, no he's not in the military, he is in Pakistan purely by choice. He had planned and trained for a very long time to take time after completing his masters for a trip overseas. He is what I would call an avid backpacker, climber, camper, hiker, runner. So he planned to take this summer to go climb a mountain more comparative to Everest than anything we could relate to in the States. Therefore, he is on a trek to climb Broad Peak. Broad Peak is the 12th tallest mountain in the world standing at 8,051 meters (aka 26,414 ft.) He is with about 12 other people in hopes of summiting and according to what Isaiah (my brother) has said, almost all of the people he is with have climbed Mt. Everest. So anyways, as excited as I am for my brother to be accomplishing such an outrageous challenge, I still worry and think about him a lot. If you want to read more, I would check out his blog which I have been updating while he is away. Click here for access.

On that note I will say goodnight.

One more thing-
I never know what to talk about on here so if you have suggestions or want to hear me talk about more "happy" things, let me know. I would gladly update you on things in my life I haven't been talking about.

Thursday, June 11, 2009


iPhone software update comes out June 17th!! That is next Wednesday!!

So, yes, I have an iPhone and it might possibly be my most prized possession. Although I carry it everywhere it is not very well protected for being my most prized possession.

Besides being uber excited for the new update, not much else is new. Every day I think about the same 3 things:
1) When I will be working next- I work at a fancy resort as a waitress about 5 days a week and so far enjoy it quite a bit.
2) I wonder what my brother is doing in Pakistan at the moment. Right now I'm sure he's sleeping, but since I love traveling as well, I wonder how the culture is, how he is getting along with people, if he's safe, etc.
3) Lastly, I constantly wonder about the weather. Is it going to rain today? Will it be nice enough to not have to wear long sleeves? Will I ever get to go to the beach this summer? Should I even call this summer because it sure feels like Fall?

Besides work, I've spent most of my summer days wandering around the house looking for my cat and trying to have her entertain me, cleaning the house to the best of my ability, or finding errands to run just to stay busy. These are the days I wish I had a hobby. Like I could go out into my garage and build something or go running or that I had a boat I could go waste time on, or money I could spend going shopping. I usually just paint and repaint my nails or find food that won't make me TOO fat or watch re-runs of the same episodes day after day...

So with all this free time I seem to have, why don't I do something more productive? I mean I could read a book, or excersise, or build a purse rack I've been meaning to, so why not? That's a good question. I feel like even with the free time I have, I hate starting something and not finishing. Like I could go for a run, but I'm supposed to meet my boyfriend in an hour and getting ready for the run, going for a run, and then showering would take me longer than an hour. Same with building something, I wouldn't want to start building it because I'd get half done and then have to make dinner or something and it would lay half done for a few months.

Well, I'm glad I got to write some of my thoughts down, because I think I'm going to make use of my time a bit better now, or at least think I should be doing something more productive and know I have something better to do.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Meet Berea

Just to answer those basic questions people often ask of new acquaintances, I thought I would give you a little background of me, Berea Janzen.

I just finished my freshman year at Milwaukee School of Engineering (AKA: MSOE) and am enrolled in the Industrial Engineering department. I'm one of the very few people that think I know what I want to be at this early stage of my career, and so far, there's nothing else I would have rather choosen.

Although I did most of my maturing here in Wisconsin, I did most of my growing up in a much warmer climate, Kansas. And to back-track some more, I was born in Ohio and then lived in Missouri and Oklahoma. Throughout all of these places, I've been able to experience small hick towns, big cities, towns that see snow for about a month, and now experience winter 10 months of the year. So, what do I prefer? Or where has been my favorite place to live? Well, this question isn't as easy as most people think because for me, I find the best in everything. In Kansas, I loved knowing everyone and being able to walk around town at midnight and not have a single worry and of course, I loved the weather. But here in Wisconsin I love how laid back everything seems to be and I also like knowing so many people and the relative closeness of everything and playing in the snow for a few months. Both of these places I grew up in had downfalls as well. In Kansas, the closest Walmart or McDonalds was at least 20 miles away and in Wisconsin it is now June and we have yet to see 70 degree days for more than 2 days in a row.

Moving on, I also said I travel a lot, and for the average person, I still believe I do. I have eaten lobster in Maine, been to the crown of the Statue of Liberty, been on the top floor of the World Trade Center, visited Gettysburg, experienced the humidity of Florida, milked a cow in Oklahoma, built a church in Mexico, seen the Grand Canyon, walked the Las Vegas strip, swam in the ocean at Laguna Beach, seen Mt. Rushmore, driven through the flats of Kansas, and been on the highest point in the US, Mt. Elbert. I've been to the White House and Niagara Falls, camped in Canada...etc. Haha. Does that tell you enough of where I've been and what I've done? If you want to know how rocky mountain oysters taste or what kind of emotions you get when you're on the tallest mountain in America, I could tell you that too. Or how I really feel about "summer hoodies".

Well, I think that gives you enough to think about until next time.

Carpe Diem!